Once upon a time in the 1940s, a teenager named Roland Loomis, who lived with his devout Lutheran parents in Aberdeen, S.D., received a hand-me-down camera from his uncle. It was a gift that would change his life.

Small and effeminate, he didn’t exactly fit with the “in” crowd of his small rural town; but he had an inner life more thrilling than anything they had to offer, anyway, and that camera became the key with which it could finally be unlocked. Waiting patiently for those precious hours when he was alone in the house, he used it to capture images of himself that expressed an identity he had only begun to explore, through furtive experiments in body manipulation that incorporated exotic costuming, erotic nudity, gender ambiguity, and what many of us might call (though he would not) self-mutilation, including the piercing of his skin and other extreme forms of physical modification.

Young Roland would go on to become famous (or perhaps, notorious) in the decades to come, but it would be under a different name: Fakir Musafar, the focal figure of filmmaker Angelo Madsen’s documentary “A Body to Live In,” which opened in Los Angeles on Feb. 27 and expands to New York this weekend. 

Like Musafar himself, who died of lung cancer at 87 in 2018, it’s a documentary that doesn’t quite follow the expected rules. Eschewing “talking head” commentators and traditional narration, Madsen spins his movie from his subject’s extensive archives and allows the information to come through the voices of those who were close to him: collaborator and life partner Cléo Dubois, performance artists Ron Athey and Annie Sprinkle, and underground publisher V. Vale are among the many who contribute their memories and impressions of him, while evocative photos and film footage create a hazy “slide show” effect to provide a guided tour of his life, his art, and his legacy. Less a biography than a chronicle of profoundly unorthodox self-discovery, it details his development from those early days of clandestine self-photography through a continual evolution that would see him become a performance artist, a central figure in the burgeoning BDSM culture, a seeker who espoused eroticism as a spiritual practice, the founder of a “Radical Faeries” offshoot for the kink/fetish community, and ultimately an elder and mentor for a new generation for whom his once-taboo ideas and explorations had essentially become mainstream – thanks in no small part to his own pioneering efforts.

It’s a fascinating, hypnotic trip into a culture which might feel disturbingly transgressive to those who have never been a part of it – yet will almost certainly feel like being “seen” to those who have. It opens a window into a lifestyle where leather, kink, BDSM, gender play, and non-monogamous “situationships” are not just accepted but viewed as natural variations on the spectrum of human sexuality; and in the middle of it all is Musafar, on a deeply personal quest to connect with the deepest part of his essence through the intense and ritualistic pursuit of an inner drive that keeps pushing him further. As one reminiscing cohort remarks during the film, it’s as if he is “trying to find an answer to a question that” he “cannot form.”

Indeed, it might be said that Madsen’s movie is an exercise in forming that question; bringing his own “transness” into the mix as he examines the various aspects of Musafar’s ever-evolving relationship with self, identity, and presentation, he evokes a timely resonance in which the imperative to make physical form match psychic self-perception becomes an irresistible force, and draws a direct line between his subject’s fluid ambiguity and the plight faced by modern trans people over the bigotry of those who think gender is strictly about genitalia. Perhaps the question has to do with whether we are defined by our identities or by our physical form – or if both are malleable, adaptable, and in a constant state of flux.

In any case, with regard to Musafar, “A Body to Live In” is unquestionably a film about transformation, not just of physical manifestation but of consciousness itself. In his journey from being little Roland, the outcast schoolboy with a secret fetish, to Fakir, the spiritual psychonaut for whom sex and gender are only walls that separate us from a true and eternal essence, he is embodied by Madsen’s reverent documentary as a being in the process of breaking free from the restrictions of physical existence, of transcending all such distinctions by letting go of life itself – something underscored not only by the section of the movie dealing with the impact of the AIDS epidemic on Musafar’s deeply-bonded community, but by his own words, spoken in a deathbed interview that serves as a connecting thread throughout the film. We are kept unavoidably aware of the mortality which – for Musafar at least – seems little more than a prison that keeps us from the unfettered joy of our true nature.

But while Madsen honors his subject as a pillar – and an under-sung hero – of contemporary queer culture, he also addresses the aspects that made him a “problematic” figure; in his life, he drew criticism over perceived cultural appropriation from the indigenous American tribes whose sacred rituals inspired the kink-flavored practices which facilitated his own spiritual odyssey, and which he popularized among his own acolytes to give rise to the still-controversial “Modern Primitive” movement that has been criticized by some for turning meaningful cultural traditions into an excuse for trendy fashion accessories. Even Musafar’s survivors, whose love for him exudes palpably from the stories and memories they share of him throughout the film, make observations that point to his flaws; yet at the same time, Madsen’s documentary makes clear that Musafar himself never saw himself as perfect, either – just as someone willing to endure the kind of suffering that most of us might find unbearable in order to get closer to perfection.

Of course, it probably helped that he enjoyed that so-called “suffering,” but that’s perhaps too glib an observation in the face of a film that so clearly makes a case for the deep and sincere commitment he held for his quest for transcendence; but it’s also a helpful reminder that his practices – which might seem macabre and twisted to the uninitiated – were also an experience of joy, an exercise in rising above pain and making it a vehicle toward enlightenment, and in achieving a deeper understanding of one’s own place in this confusing place we call the universe.

Full disclosure: “A Body to Live In” is an intense experience, replete with candid sexual conversation, frequent nudity, and graphic scenes of extreme fetish practices – like suspension by metal hooks through the skin – which might be hard to handle for those who are unprepared to be confronted by them. Even so, as dark and menacing as it might be for the squeamish outsider, the world revealed in Madsen’s eloquent portrait is full of treasures and steeped in dark beauty, and it’s hard to imagine a more fitting way than that to portray a queer pioneer like the former Roland Loomis.

While many of the speeches given at this week’s GLAAD Media Awards touched on the Trump administration’s ongoing attacks against the queer community, the evening was also a rare opportunity for the LGBTQ+ community to come together and celebrate each other’s unique accomplishments in the competitive world of entertainment and media.

As legends like Kiss of the Spider Woman and Dreamgirls director Bill Condon hit the star-studded red carpet at The Beverly Hilton in Los Angeles, The Blade asked GLAAD nominees and guests to reflect on recent moments of queer joy in their lives — however that phrase may resonate.

“Heated Rivalry, I know it’s a cliche, but that is pure joy!” Condon said. “There’s something about its Canadian nature that’s exactly what we need in America right now.”

For performer Frankie Grande, who was in attendance as a GLAAD nominee for outstanding breakthrough music artist following the release of his “very gay, very femme-forward” debut album Hotel Rock, joy has been found on stage. “I’m in rehearsals right now for the Broadway show Titanique, and it is so gay! I’m so grateful, and it’s just been the most fun I’ve ever had.”

Being nominated by GLAAD was extra special for Grande: “I wasn’t really expecting it to do major things, but it was embraced by this community. And that’s the only thing I really cared about. I was hoping that it would continue to inspire people who maybe aren’t in a place where they’re seen or heard. And now they’re dancing around their living room to “Boys!”

David Archuleta recently released his memoir, Devout, about his journey from the American Idol stage to being closeted in the Mormon church. Now, he’s reflecting on his relationship with family after fully embracing his queerness.

“I have other siblings that are part of the LGBTQ+ community, and it’s been great just to relate to them,” Archuleta said. “When I first came out, my mom was like, ‘No, I can’t accept this.’ And now she sticks a rainbow flag in her front yard!”

Canada’s Drag Race guest star and GLAAD presenter Lauren Chan found the courage to come out through fashion. Last May, she became the first out lesbian on the cover of Sports Illustrated Swimsuit. On the red carpet, she shared how “it’s important to also recognize the small moments, right? Now being married to my wife, I have joyous moments every day in the kitchen. We see our friends in the community in New York, and we feel joy. And I feel an immense amount of joy in this room!”

That sentiment of joy and community in the room continued throughout the evening, as queer icons Liza Minnelli and Laverne Cox made appearances. The GLAAD Media Awards will officially air Saturday, March 21, on Hulu.

Check out The Blade’s coverage from inside the room here.

Katya Zamolodchikova has been a breakout star since their tenure on RuPaul’s Drag Race. With Trixie Mattel, they’ve created a veritable media empire with multiple YouTube series, live shows, tons of brand awareness, and podcasts. Katya steps away from their frequent collaborator to unite with everyone’s favorite frenemy, Grindr, on an interview podcast, “Who’s The Asshole?”

She brings her offbeat sense of humor, irreverent mind, and a new hairpiece to interview some of the hottest people of the moment. This season features Jinkx Monsoon, Jeremy Scott, everyone’s favorite transvestigator Luscious Massacr, Peaches, Pat Regan, and The Traitors star Colton Underwood.

This marks the fourth season of this podcast, which has a distinctly different vibe from The Bald & The Beautiful in the same way Monet XChange plays off Bob the Drag Queen, but is a consummate professional interviewer on Monet Talks. Katya breaks from playing off her straight man, Trixie, and instead partners with Grindr. It’s the perfect combination for a sexy, unhinged podcast with some of your favorite queer celebrities dishing about life, sex, and app culture. 

Katya took time for quick chat and gave us a brain dump of her hottest thoughts about everything from Heated Rivalry to hooking up. 

 Edge: What do you love about this podcast?

Katya: I love getting to talk to wildly different people about sexual ethics, social mores, and really dissect our behaviors and patterns around sexuality. 

E: What is your take on the Heated Rivalry phenomenon?

K: I love it. I love them. I love gay sex and I can’t wait for season 2.

What does dating look like in a post-Heated Rivalry world?

Probably just fucking on a Zamboni. I think that’s the vibe. 

Any thoughts on Pillion?

I think it’s very important. I think it’s essential. In a way, it’s even required. (I haven’t seen it yet.) 

What is the state of Drag? Drag Race?

Drag is, has always been, and will always continue to be corny, so we must do everything in our power to be as cunty as possible. Drag Race is franchising all over the globe, and I think it’s amazing. 

Has “representation” sanitized queer expression?

I don’t think so. You should see some of my queer friends and the way they express themselves! Nothing sanitary there!

Who benefits from “respectable” drag?

Restaurant and nightclub owners. Less blood and feces to clean up. 

How have the apps changed queer culture?

They have changed our culture in so many ways. For introverts and shy folk, apps are such a boon! I was afraid to talk to anyone up to age 30. I would have to give a big, warm thank you to Grindr for helping facilitate my year of sexual discovery.

Hot takes on dating? Polyamory? open relationships?

It’s always much simpler than people think. Do you like him? Do you? You should be able to answer that question in 2 seconds. Does he like you? You should answer that in 3 seconds. The rest is just trial and error and hopefully a lot of moaning and groaning (on the hockey rink only, of course).

Katya has six episodes of this season of “Who’s The Asshole?” premiering each Thursday on YouTube and your favorite podcast apps. 

Last night’s GLAAD Media Awards had a few pleasant surprises in store.

Throughout the evening, which was hosted by Mean Girls star Jonathan Bennett on Thursday, March 5, at The Beverly Hilton in Los Angeles, the audience was clued into the fact that a mystery guest would make an appearance. By the end of the night, it was revealed to be none other than Cabaret star and queer icon Liza Minnelli, who was in attendance to accept the newly-created Liza Minnelli Storyteller Award.

An emotional Minnelli told the crowd of queer attendees and creatives, “You make me so proud because you’re so strong, and you stand up for what you believe in. You really do, and it’s so nice to be here. I feel like a five-year-old!” Everyone then joined in a happy birthday celebration for Minnelli’s upcoming birthday on March 12, and the release of her upcoming memoir, Kids, Wait Till You Hear This!

Another moment that got the audience standing and cheering was when Orange Is the New Black star Laverne Cox took to the stage to call out how “what is going on right now in the United States of America is not right.”

She said, “Identify, I said this earlier, and I’m going to say it again, what dehumanizing language and images are. Call it out and don’t buy into it! So much of my struggle over the past several years [has been] trying to figure out how to combat this assault on my community, rhetorically. I do not want to have the conversation about my life and my humanity on the oppressor’s terms.”

That message was echoed by Bowen Yang and Matt Rogers when accepting the Stephen F. Kolzak Award for their Las Culturistas podcast and pledging to donate $10k to Equality Kansas after the state revoked transgender people’s driver’s licenses. “We cannot accept this award without condemning the rampant active transphobia from this administration,” Rogers said. “We are also here to let them know in advance that they are fighting a losing battle. When we gather in rooms like this, we are always going to have each other’s backs.”

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Among the big winners last night were Heated Rivalry for outstanding new TV series, The Traitors for outstanding reality competition program, Stranger Things for outstanding drama series, Palm Royale (which was just cancelled after two seasons) for outstanding comedy series, Come See Me in the Good Light for outstanding documentary, Kiss of the Spider Woman for outstanding wide theatrical release film and a tie between A Nice Indian Boy and Plainclothes for outstanding limited theatrical release film.

Quinta Brunson received the Vanguard Award for her hit TV series Abbott Elementary, which features Jacob, an openly queer character played by Chris Perfetti. Brunson said, “Queer people have been a part of my life since birth. I have to shout out my uncle… who was the first example of representation in my life of queer people, who allowed me to be free. There are so many people in the room who changed my life.”

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On the music side, Young Miko won for outstanding music artist, and KATSEYE won for outstanding breakthrough music artist. Demi Lovato even opened the show with a steamy performance of her single “Kiss.”

The GLAAD Media Awards will officially air Saturday, March 21 on Hulu.

Todd Stephens, director of both the outrageous Another Gay Movie (which turns 20 this year!) and Another Gay Sequel: Gays Gone Wild!, knows all too well that the era of early 2000s comedies like Wet Hot American Summer and Not Another Teen Movie has largely come and gone.

But with the theatrical re-release of his 2008 cult classic Another Gay Sequel, which features memorable cameos from RuPaul, Perez Hilton, Scott Thompson and the late Colton Ford, Stephens is hopeful that his 2000s comedies will find new audiences and “make people laugh” in our increasingly “crazy, dark” world.

“Nobody’s really making these kinds of raunchy, irreverent satires [anymore]. I mean, people are afraid. Comedians and filmmakers are afraid of being cancelled if they cross the line, which sometimes we do when we’re making crazy comedies,” Stephens says. “There are things about Another Gay Sequel that I would never do now. I wish I could go back and change. But it takes a lot of guts to make a politically incorrect film, and I think that’s why people still appreciate seeing that.”

Shot on location in Florida, Another Gay Sequel follows four young men (played by Jake Mosser, Jonah Blechman, Jimmy Clabots, and Aaron Michael Davies) who spend their spring break vacation in Fort Lauderdale — the goal, of course, to hook up with as many men as possible. What ensues must be seen to be believed, as Stephens’ comedy harkens back to pre-Grindr and pre-Instagram hookup culture.

“I made films primarily for the queer community so we could laugh at ourselves. Up until that time, mid to early 2000s queer content was so serious — coming out films where the queer characters were agonizing about who they were,” Stephens says, while foregrounding that he made his own coming out movie with 1998’s Edge of Seventeen. “I wanted to do something different and set it in a world where they were already out loud and proud. Being queer was not the conflict. They just wanted to get laid like every other young guy!”

While Another Gay Movie grossed nearly $800,000 worldwide and has continued to reach queer audiences, Stephens admits he faced more challenges when coming back for the sequel two years later. He says, “The sequel was not as well-received as the original. I think that’s generally the case with sequels. The other challenge with Another Gay Sequel is that I was originally going to make it with the cast of the first movie, and unfortunately, right before we started shooting, two of the guys decided not to come back.”

Stephens continues, “I didn’t speak to them for years, but now, over the years, we’re all friends again. Actually, we just had dinner a couple of weeks ago and even batted around ideas for doing a part three of the trilogy. So who knows!”

In the indie film scene, Stephens is known for his more understated character dramas. Most recently, Stephens wrote, directed, and produced Swan Song as the final film in his “Ohio Trilogy,” which also features 1998’s Edge of Seventeen and 2001’s Gypsy 83. The 2021 release starred the late Udo Kier as hairdresser Pat Pitsenbarger, based on the queer inspiration that Stephens looked up to growing up in Ohio.

“When Udo opened the door to his house and introduced me to his dog, whose name was Liza Minnelli, I was like, ‘There’s another whole side of Udo that the world hasn’t really seen.’ He was, honestly, probably the best actor I’ve ever worked with in my life. Every day watching him on set was like a masterclass in acting,” Stephens says. “It’s a big loss, but Udo had a legendary career, so he left a lot of amazing work behind for us to check out.”

Recalling both his experiences working with the late Kier and Ford, and the importance of younger queer people connecting with the icons that came before them, Stephens says: “When I was growing up, the small town gay bar was where I met people from other generations. They told me stories and passed on queer culture. There was this intergenerational conversation that happened because we were gathering as a community. That is, sadly, something more challenging these days.”

He concludes, “The five queer resorts we shot at in Another Gay Sequel, for example, are all gone. The physical gay world is becoming extinct, and that’s something we have to work harder at to learn from our elders — the ones who paved the way for us. It’s more challenging, but we just have to work a little harder to connect with everybody. Get off our damn phones and go be with our people!”

Another Gay Sequel: Gays Gone Wild! is currently streaming on all major platforms.

The 48th annual Sydney Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras Parade was held on Feb. 28.

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Most gay men of a certain age remember “the kiss.”

It was the moment Madonna’s dancers Salim Gauwloos and Gabriel Trupin locked lips in the hit 1991 documentary film “Truth or Dare,” which is celebrating its 35th anniversary this spring.

The kiss was hot, but what made it groundbreaking is that it appeared in a mainstream Hollywood movie that screened in suburban multiplexes across the country. This wasn’t an obscure art house film. The movie, and tour on which it was based, received months of breathless media attention all over the world for bold expressions of female empowerment and queer visibility. Madonna was threatened with arrest in Toronto for simulating masturbation on stage and Pope John Paul II urged Catholics to boycott the show, triggering a media firestorm. 

“Truth or Dare” was billed as a behind-the-scenes documentary of the tour, but it quickly became clear that the real star of the show wasn’t Madonna, but rather her colorful troupe of seven backup dancers, six of whom identified as gay: Kevin Stea, Carlton Wilborn, Luis Xtravaganza Camacho, Jose Gutierez Xtravaganza, Gauwloos, and Trupin; Oliver Crumes III identifies as straight.

We saw them party and march in the New York City Pride parade. They were unabashedly queer at a dangerous time — before protease inhibitors began to stem the AIDS plague and before most celebrities and politicians embraced the gay community in any real way. Being out in 1991 carried major risks to career and reputation. 

Enter Gauwloos, one of those brave dancers who vogued his way into the hearts of countless gay men entranced by his handsome looks, his stage presence, and dance skills. 

Gauwloos — known then and now as “Slam”— sat down with the Blade to talk Madonna, the lasting impact of “Truth or Dare,” the public disclosure of his HIV status, and plans for a new book on his life. 

His story is fascinating — from growing up in Europe to dancing in New York to landing the gig of a lifetime with Madonna. He performed on that tour while secretly HIV positive and went without medical treatment for 10 years because he was living in the United States as an undocumented immigrant. Not even Madonna knew of his HIV status. Two other dancers on the tour were also HIV positive but no one talked about it. Ironically, Madonna was singing “Express Yourself” and advocating for condom use during her concerts yet backstage three of her dancers were secretly positive.

“A lot of people were dying so I wasn’t going to tell Madonna I had HIV,” said Slam, now 57. “And the others didn’t either. It wasn’t the moment to do it. She used to make speeches about Keith Haring and AIDS and I thought it’s going to be me next.”

Gabriel Trupin died of AIDS in 1995. Slam was diagnosed at age 18 in 1987, a frightening time when a positive test result often meant a death sentence. He booked the “Blond Ambition Tour” at age 21 after moving to New York. His friends encouraged him to audition but Slam resisted because he wasn’t a big Madonna fan.

“It was crazy, everyone wanted that job,” he said, “but I wanted to dance with Janet Jackson and Paula Abdul.” He listened to his friends and shortly after the audition, Slam received a call from Madonna herself inviting him to join the tour.

“We all wanted to be stars but not even Madonna knew how big that tour would become. The way it was choreographed and directed, the stars aligned. … It never looks dated even today.”

The world tour kicked off in Japan in April 1990 then moved to the United States and Europe, stirring controversy wherever it went. There was the iconic cone bra; the aforementioned simulated masturbation during “Like a Virgin”; and religious imagery that offended many Catholic groups and the Vatican.

And the controversy didn’t end with the tour. Cameras were rolling throughout the tour for what Slam thought would be a “video memory” for Madonna. But as the tour unfolded, director Alek Keshishian reportedly became more interested in what was happening behind the scenes so plans for mere tour footage were expanded into a full documentary.

“We were young and partying and didn’t really know what was going on,” Slam said. “You live in this celebrity bubble and you sign a paper – I don’t even know what I signed.”

In 1992, Kevin, Oliver, and Gabriel sued Madonna for invasion of privacy and fraud claiming she used some footage without their consent. They claim they were told nothing would be included in the film that they didn’t want to be seen. In one specific incident, Gabriel alleged that he told producers he didn’t want the scene of him kissing Slam to be in the film as he wasn’t fully out.

“Gabriel was forcibly outed,” in the movie, Kevin said in a 2016 interview.

Slam did not join his colleagues in the lawsuit.

“I couldn’t sue because I was illegal but I wasn’t ever going to sue,” Slam said. “I’m not a suing kind of person. But good for them, they fought for it and won. A lot of people don’t have the balls to sue Madonna.” The suit was settled two years later for an undisclosed sum.

“We were all conflicted about the kiss,” he said with a laugh. “The kiss, oh my God, my boyfriend is going to kill me! Belgian stress!”

Beyond worrying about his boyfriend’s reaction, Slam had concerns about the impact of being openly gay on his modeling career.

“In 1990, you couldn’t get high fashion campaigns as an openly gay model,” he said. “I was worried about that. I couldn’t get a campaign because I was gay. My agency told me to say I was straight and it was just a game.”

In 2016, pegged to the 25th anniversary of “Truth or Dare,” the surviving six dancers filmed a documentary about their lives post-Madonna titled “Strike A Pose.” In it, Slam publicly revealed his HIV status for the first time in an emotional scene with his former colleagues.

“I found the strength to tell the world I have HIV,” he recalls. “I was scared but I felt brave. The outcome and messages were beautiful. After I saw ‘Strike A Pose,’ I knew we gave people hope. And not just for gay people.”

He was infected in 1987 but didn’t get treated until 1997. After the tour ended, he said he went into a depression and his agency dropped him. 

“I was partying too much after the tour,” he recalls. “I made a decision to live as an illegal alien.” In 1997, Slam collapsed and was rushed to the hospital with pneumonia. 

“They started treating me and thank God the new HIV drugs were out, the cocktails, it took me a couple months to get better.”

Madonna didn’t participate in “Strike A Pose” and Slam said he hasn’t seen or spoken to her since the end of the tour. He said he had no idea of the impact “Truth or Dare” would have. 

“You look at this movie in 1991 and you don’t think it’s going to be such a big thing and 35 years later it’s still helping people,” he said. “It was helpful for people who felt alone at that time. It was such an important documentary.

“I don’t think younger gay people realize how important Madonna was to gay and queer visibility — she was a big part of it. We showed the world it’s OK to be gay and that was the great message of this movie.”

He noted that, decades later, many of his friends have transgender kids and that queer culture is represented in much of mainstream pop culture.

“It’s amazing how far we’ve come,” he said. “I know we’ll always be marginalized but we have come so far. I’m really proud of our community. The current nightmare will be over and I do believe that things will get better.”

Referencing President Trump’s attacks on the LGBTQ community and crackdown on immigration, Slam described the situation in the U.S. today as “sad.”

“Everything is such a mess,” he said. “Some of these people have lived here 30-40 years and they take you out of your home. I can’t even imagine. It breaks my heart. When I was illegal it was a different story.”

Slam met his husband, Facundo Gabba, who’s from Argentina, in 2000, and he helped him get a legal case together to win citizenship. He filed a case in 2001 and was told there was a 99 percent chance he wouldn’t be permitted to stay in the United States because they weren’t allowing HIV-positive immigrants to remain in the country. But he got his green card anyway in 2005 and became a U.S. citizen in 2012. 

Today, Slam and Gabba live in Brooklyn, though they travel a lot because “I can’t take the cold.” The couple married in Argentina in 2010 and in the U.S. in 2016.

Slam is still dancing and working as a choreographer. He’s teaching at a contemporary dance festival in Vienna in July and even offers online lessons via Salimdans.com.

As a longtime HIV survivor, Slam is dedicated to a healthful lifestyle.

“You have to keep moving; when you move you stay healthy,” he says. “Dance heals everything. I do yoga, I eat healthy and clean as possible. I don’t watch much TV … I try to stay healthy and positive. If I absorb all of the negativity I would be sick.”

In addition to his ongoing work in dance and choreography, Slam is in the early stages of writing a book about his extraordinary life and pioneering career.

“I always knew I had a book inside of me. I want to talk about my HIV status. I know I can inspire more people. I want to tell even more secrets in the book; secrets are a poison so I want to tell everything.” 

Among those secrets, he notes, is a desire to write about his strict Muslim father and the years he spent as an undocumented immigrant in America. 

“Those are the things I want to talk about, the struggles. It’s a love story, hope and resilience. I know it will help people.”

As for his friends from the tour, Slam says he remains in contact with Gabriel’s mother and José Xtravaganza is his best friend. Baltimore’s Center Stage theater is currently developing a new musical about Xtravaganza’s life. And Slam said he occasionally talks to Oliver, though “he still can’t pronounce Sandra Bernhard’s name.”

At the end of our interview, Slam indulged a round a rapid fire questions:

• Favorite song to perform in the “Blond Ambition” tour? “Express Yourself.”

• Aside from Madonna, who was your favorite artist you worked with? Toni Braxton in “Aida” on Broadway. 

• Favorite Madonna song? “Live to Tell”

• Favorite Madonna video? “Bedtime Stories”

• What’s more stressful: performing in a concert or performing on the VMAs? “Both, because we always had to be perfect.”

• Did you go to Madonna’s recent “Celebration” tour? “I didn’t see the show but I saw clips online.”

• What do you remember most about performing “Vogue” at the VMAs? “It was nerve-racking for them to flip those fans.”

• When was the last time you vogued? “I teach classes so a couple weeks ago.”

‘Bury your gays’ is a common trope in horror, referring to the unbelievable ways that this genre has historically killed off its queer characters. Usually preceded by numerous scenes of harmful stereotyping, for decades, LGBTQ+ folks in any kind of scary project were viewed as nothing more than joke fodder and additions to the body count. Luckily, that’s shifted in recent years; frustrated by the medium’s toxic tendencies, thriller fans began creating their own projects centering queer themes and identities. From I Saw the TV Glow to The Fall of the House of Usher, it’s been heartening to see horror, thriller, and mystery genres finally begin to respectfully showcase the queer communities who’ve always loved them. It’s a greatly welcomed trend, and it just gained one of its sexiest, most intriguing additions yet in the form of OUTtv’s new thriller series, Laid Bare. 

Set in a clothing-optional resort, this blood-soaked mystery follows a group of gay men summoned by the dying wishes of late millionaire Nikos Lambrakis. Guided by the rich man’s two wayward sons, they learn that despite having wronged the tycoon before his death, he’s left them each a sizable amount of money in his will. But, there’s a catch: they’re only able to get the cash after staying at the resort for a set number of days. And if, for some reason, one of them were to die…his funds would be distributed amongst the remaining, with each of them growing richer as the victim’s body begins to rot. It’s a chilling caveat on the gift of a lifetime, and it leads to one of our cast becoming a silent killer, stalking the other men across this nude paradise, ready to end their lives in the bloodiest ways imaginable. 

An ingenious, sex-fueled twist on mystery tropes that many fans will know well, Laid Bare stands out as a thriller project filled with LGBTQ+ voices behind and in front of the camera. It serves as an unsettling, sexy dissection of modern queerness, and for its star Ethan Daniel Corbett, it made for one of the most affirming roles of his career. 

“I usually play villains,” said Corbett, as he discussed his performance as Alistair in Laid Bare with the LA Blade. “But being able to play someone who is so chaotic…it was so much fun to do.” The actor’s joy is evident every second he’s onscreen; Alistair is one of Nikos’ two sons who, to the frustration of his harried brother, views his father’s resort as nothing more than a chance to get naked and flirt with cute guests. But as the bodies begin to pile up, he adds a hilariously chaotic sense of panic to the proceedings, allowing Corbett to act in a way he’d never been able to before. “It’s just refreshing to do something unique,” the man continued. “To have a queer story where it’s not necessarily tied to past trauma about being queer. [These characters] are already out, they are who they are, and they’re comfortable with who they are.” 

And comfortable they definitely are, as any discussion of Laid Bare wouldn’t be complete without speaking about one of the series’ most notable elements: its constant nudity. 

Laid Bare never shies away from the nude sights that a clothing-optional resort would entail. It may shock watchers at first to see such bold displays of body, but Corbett emphasized that the men’s nakedness wasn’t just to surprise viewers — their nudity serves to subvert the genre conventions that horror fans are used to. “I find that it’s a really interesting way to do a murder mystery, because a lot of that time, a major part of [the mystery] involves hidden weapons and how much people can get away with. I thought [the nudity] was actually a really unique, interesting take.” 

Not only that, Ethan discussed that the nudity was an utterly revealing mechanism used to explore one of the core aspects of Laid Bare: the experience of being a gay man today. 

“To be able to watch this and see men being vulnerable and leaning on each other…I feel like that is something missing in today’s world. Being able to count on each other during hard times.” The performer expressed his disappointment in this absence not only within heterosexual circles but also in queer ones. It’s an unfortunate truth that many LGBTQ+ spaces meant to be welcoming can often feel exclusionary for those who aren’t queer in ‘the right way.’ This aspect of modern queerness shows up often throughout the series, with the men’s many arguments and cruel words echoing sentiments that, unfortunately, still exist within gay circles today. “I think it can hold a mirror up to the queer community. I know it’s not the case for [everyone], but sometimes you find that if you don’t look a certain way, or you don’t act a certain way, you’re [not allowed] in.”

Ethan teased that this particular allegory is explored constantly throughout Laid Bare, along with discussions of sex work, harmful intellectualism, and toxic masculinity (all set against the backdrop of a terrifying killing spree). But even with all of this animosity and bloodshed on display, he raved about what an amazing experience filming this project was — and it was all thanks to Laid Bare’s cast and crew. 

Even in movies and series centered around queer identity, it can be hard to find a crew stacked with people who personally understand the themes playing out onscreen. Corbett emphasized how thoroughly queer almost everyone associated with this show was, saying, “Behind the scenes, it was one of the most supportive casts and crews I’ve ever worked with. It was really encouraging for me to know that these people [weren’t only] great, but were also specifically a part of our community.” He discussed how this intimate awareness made him feel comfortable with not only the nudity but the intense emotionality of Laid Bare, with everyone involved with the project ensuring that it was a comfortable space for all. “I think this is honestly the first time I was able to fully express [my queerness], exploring that part of my craft and the industry as a whole.”

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It was heartening to hear Ethan Daniel Corbett’s amazing experience acting in Laid Bare, with his time on the series stressing why it’s important to have professionals in the entertainment industry who truly understand the queer experience today. It’s an intimate kind of finesse that allowed for not only the actor’s great performance, but the success of this program as a whole. And, with the Laid Bare gaining a massive fandom online and becoming one of OUTtv’s most talked about projects to date, it hopefully signals even more terrifyingly inclusive projects for thriller fans in the near future. 

Laid Bare is now streaming on OUTtv.

One of the biggest headlines out of last night’s Actor Awards (formerly known as the SAG Awards) was Amy Madigan winning best supporting actress for her work in Zach Cregger’s hit horror comedy Weapons.

As she stepped on stage during the last major televised ceremony of the season — a crucial platform as Oscar voting continues through Thursday, March 5 — Madigan charmed her fellow actors and peers, shouting out fellow Weapons actors Julia Garner, Alden Ehrenreich, and Austin Abrams and remarking on how “actors love other actors.” In a moment where she would’ve been completely justified to simply relish in personal victory after working at her craft for 45 years, Madigan turned the spotlight on the collaborators who made her remarkable transformation as Aunt Gladys possible.

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As she finds herself on the cusp of Oscar glory, Madigan is also on the cusp of breaking through the Academy of Motion Pictures Arts and Sciences’ historic bias against horror performances (remember Toni Collette in Hereditary and Florence Pugh in Midsommar?) But it’s that same bias that could keep the Field of Dreams actor from going all the way.

Last year, best actress frontrunner and The Substance star Demi Moore lost the Oscar to Mikey Madison in the best picture winner, Anora. Moore won major awards at the Critics Choice, Golden Globes, and Actor Awards, while Madison won at the BAFTAs and Spirit Awards. The Substance certainly tested Oscar voters more with its ultra-shocking body horror, but Madigan’s trajectory with Weapons hasn’t been too far off from Moore’s — she’s a veteran actor finally getting her dues for an out-there horror performance in an even more out-there film. You could argue Madigan has the most identifiable career narrative of the season, and she gave one hell of a memorable performance that instantly went viral.

She’s been here before; in a fitting full-circle moment, Madigan received her first and, to date, only other Oscar nomination exactly 40 years ago for 1985’s Twice in a Lifetime, an indie drama starring Gene Hackman, Ellen Burstyn, and Ann-Margret (Madigan was the sole nominee for that film). The Oscar-winning group that Madigan hopes to join come March 15 is comprised of Jodie Foster and Anthony Hopkins for The Silence of the Lambs, Kathy Bates for Misery, Fredric March for Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, and Ruth Gordon for Rosemary’s Baby. A small group, but mighty company for the lucky actor who joins it next.

Madigan’s trajectory has already been compared to Gordon and Rosemary’s Baby, and rightly so — Gordon won the supporting actress Oscar in 1969 on her second acting nomination, while box office hit Rosemary’s Baby was only nominated for one other award (best adapted screenplay). Weapons was an undeniable summer sleeper hit, grossing $269 million worldwide and earning a coveted nomination from the Producers Guild of America, yet Madigan was the only part of the film to be Oscar-nominated. Her two main competitors, which include BAFTA winner Wunmi Mosaku for Sinners and Golden Globe winner Teyana Taylor for One Battle After Another, have the benefit of being in best picture frontrunners with 16 and 13 nominations apiece. Those films also have top-of-the-line visibility from distributor Warner Bros. Pictures.

With the uncertain state of the supporting actress race so far, Madigan has history going both for and against her; the past six Actor Award winners for supporting actress, most recently Zoe Saldaña for Emilia Pérez and Da’Vine Joy Randolph for The Holdovers, all went on to win the Oscar. But those six actors were in films with multiple Oscar nominations, including best picture, and four of the six swept all the major precursors. Notably, the last time the Actor Awards mismatched with the Oscar supporting actress winner was in 2019, when Emily Blunt won for A Quiet Place (she wasn’t even nominated for the Oscar!)

As the sole rep of her film in a fractured category, Madigan has more odds stacked against her. One could also argue, though, that Madigan being the sole nominee of her film means all the campaigning has been able to strategically focus on getting her the win. Whether she prevails at the Oscars or not, she’s certainly had a blast on the campaign trail, enjoying the likes of Oscar winner Sally Field and Emmy winner Hannah Einbinder hosting Weapons screenings, tastemaker events, and Q&As over the past several months.

Madigan’s performance as Aunt Gladys has resonated with horror fans for skillfully playing the character’s terrifying turn from chatty neighbor to demonic hair-splitting killer, while the LGBTQ+ community has embraced her entire look and ethos. Aunt Gladys costumes could, predictably, be seen everywhere on Halloween, and she’s become an unstoppable inspiration for drag artists and performers. In a recent interview with Turner Classic Movies, Madigan even noted Bette Davis and What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? as a major inspiration for Aunt Gladys’ makeup and look.

Madigan told Rough Draft Atlanta in November, “I think in that realm – as someone who was bullied a lot as a kid – whenever you see characters like Gladys being proudly themselves and loud and open, there is something that resonates [with] the queer community and everybody, because that is what people want – the courage to be themselves.”

Madigan was in good company last night, with Sinners aiming to continue making history for horror cinema after its record-breaking 16 Oscar nominations. At the Actor Awards, Michael B. Jordan won best actor and the film’s ensemble took the top award, while Mosaku won best supporting actress at the BAFTAs. Jacob Elordi, who won best supporting actor at the Critics Choice Awards for Frankenstein, is nominated at the Oscars as well.

Not all these actors are odds-on favorites to win their respective categories, but 2025 horror performances have already broken through with Academy voters in the nomination stage. It wasn’t too long ago when millions of people watched Weapons in a crowded theater and discovered Madigan’s transformative talent for the first time, with some immediately writing her off from the Oscar race based on historical precedent. It’s only fitting that Aunt Gladys and the chameleon actor who brought her to life continue to prove us wrong.

‘Why Fly’
By Caroline Paul
c. 2026, Bloomsbury
$27.99/256 pages

Tray table folded up.

Check. Your seat is in the upright position, the airflow above your head is just the way you like it, and you’re ready to go. The flight crew is making final preparations. The lights are off and the plane is backing up. All you need now is “Why Fly” by Caroline Paul, and buckle up.

When she was very young, Paul was “obsessed” with tales of adventure, devouring accounts written by men of their derring-do. The only female adventure-seeker she knew about then was Amelia Earhart; later, she learned of other adventuresome women, including aviatrix Bessie Coleman, and Paul was transfixed.

Time passed; Paul grew up to create a life of adventure all her own.

Then, the year her marriage started to fracture, she switched her obsession from general exploits to flight.

Specifically, Paul loves experimental aircraft, some of which, like her “trike,” can be made from a kit at home. Others, like Woodstock, her beloved yellow gyrocopter, are major purchases that operate under different FAA rules. All flying has rules, she says, even if it seems like it should be as freewheeling as the birds it mimics.

She loves the pre-flight checklist, which is pure anticipation as well as a series of safety measures; if only a relationship had the same ritual. Paul loves her hangar, as a place of comfort and for flight in all senses of the word. She enjoys thinking about historic tales of flying, going back before the Wright Brothers, and including a man who went aloft on a lawn chair via helium-filled weather balloons.

The mere idea that she can fly any time is like a gift to Paul.

She knows a lot of people are terrified of flying, but it’s near totally safe: generally, there’s a one in almost 14 million chance of perishing in a commercial airline disaster – although, to Paul’s embarrassment and her dismay, it’s possible that both the smallest planes and the grandest loves might crash.

If you’re a fan of flying, you know what to do here. If you fear it, pry your fingernails off the armrests, take a deep breath, and head to the shelves. “Why Fly” might help you change your mind.

It’s not just that author Caroline Paul enjoys being airborne, and she tells you. It’s not that she’s honest in her explanations of being in love and being aloft. It’s the meditative aura you’ll get as you’re reading this book that makes it so appealing, despite the sometimes technical information that may flummox you between the Zen-ness. It’s not overwhelming; it mixes well with the history Paul includes, biographies, the science, heartbreak, and exciting tales of adventure and risk, but it’s there. Readers and romantics who love the outdoors, can’t resist a good mountain, and crave activity won’t mind it, though, not at all.

If you own a plane – or want to – you’ll want this book, too. It’s a great waiting-at-the-airport tale, or a tuck-in-your-suitcase-for-later read. Find “Why Fly” and you’ll see that it’s an upright kind of book.

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