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Ex-Mormon father says LDS Church homophobia is responsible for teen son’s suicide



                            Samuel Bresee, April 2014 (photo courtesy father Brian Bresee)

Starting a new school year is both exhilarating and fraught with anxiety for teenagers consumed with social standing and awkward bodily maturation. And despite considerable progress over the past decade, LGBTQ teens living in religiously conservative regions still face bullying and harassment beyond what their parents can control or comprehend. Straight teens experience the weight and shame of homophobia, too.

In an oppressive anti-LGBTQ culture, it’s “almost irrelevant” whether a young person is actually gay or perceived to be gay, Janet Heimlich, founder of the Child-Friendly Faith Project and author of Breaking the Will, tells the Los Angeles Blade. “In that culture, the accusation of being gay is the go-to bullying mechanism. It’s about power. Overpowering another individual. And when child wants to gain that power position over another out of his or her own desperation, it’s a go-to accusation, regardless of how they perceive the child’s sexuality. It may not even enter into it.”

Bullying is part of the reason Samuel Bresee, who identified as straight, took his own life five years ago at the age of 14, says his father Brian Bresee in a recent hour-long phone interview. The intractable policies and homophobic beliefs practiced and preached by the Church of Latter-Day Saints is another.

“When you’re raised in a religion like the Mormon Church, it’s all or nothing. There is no middle ground, and truthfully, if you have an opinion that counters what the leaders believe, you can be excommunicated. You live in fear constantly,” Brian Bresee says. “I lost a son to suicide. Sadly, it was because of the Church.”

Samuel was a happy, bright, caring teenager when the Bresee family moved to a new neighborhood in Las Vegas. Father and son were outside when they noticed some boys his age playing street hockey nearby. Samuel joined them, making new friends. When it was time for him to go to Boy Scouts at their new Mormon congregation, Samuel invited his non-Mormon friends to tag along.

“There was just a glow about him—joy,” Bresee recalls. “I thought ‘this is good.’”

The trouble started that evening when Samuel came home and told his father that as soon as they arrived at Boy Scouts, “one of his new friends became terrified and hid behind him,” Bresee says. They later found out that the 14-year old boys from church were regularly calling his new friend “faggot” at school “to the point where this young man was actually suicidal before we even moved into the neighborhood.”

Samuel stuck by his new friend and asked his family to embrace the troubled teen, which they did.

“Sadly, because my son became associated with this young man they were already calling faggot and because this young man hid behind our son at Boy Scouts, they made our son their new target and they started calling him faggot,” Bresee says. “This is something that got spread to his school and online in online chats.”

In the Mormon culture, members are taught from birth “that sodomy and homosexuality was a sin next to murder,” says Bresee. “After my son’s death, I went on an all-out search to try to understand his end of life decision, and what I found is that a child being called the word ‘faggot’ was the number one contributor to an end of life decision for a teenager. Being called a whore, a slut for a young girl had the same effect.”

Bresee concluded that shame was also internalized through the extremely dangerous and harmful Mormon practice called the “worthiness” interview.

“As soon as a child turns 12 years old, every six months or sometimes even more often, they’re called into the Bishop’s office and asked about every sexual question that you could possibly think of. Do you masturbate? Do you pet? What they ask some of the girls is even worse. There is no limit to what this Bishop can ask children as young as 12 years old about sexual issues,” he says. “There are no boundaries.”

Additionally, the Bishop “has the gift of discernment,” which means he supposedly knows if the young person is lying. “Imagine if you are a child at 12, 13, 14 years old, and you’re starting to discover your body, and you’re starting to feel an attraction to the same sex, and this is a sin next to murder. And the Bishop is asking are you having homosexual feelings and maybe you are so now, this child is in great danger of being outed for their sexual preference, long before they’re ready to share that,” Bresee says. “This is proving to be a dangerous mix….Find me one mental health professional that will say these interviews are not dangerous for children.

“And the reality is that LGBT children are in greater danger,” he continues. “And once you’re out in the LDS community, you’re going to be shunned, you’re going to be ostracized, bullied—exactly as my son was. Extremely dangerous. They do have a high teen suicide rate in Utah as a result.”

The CDC consistently ranks Utah in the top three states for suicide among 10 to 17-year-olds; suicide is the leading cause of death in Utah for that age group. But even critics concede that proving a causal relationship to Mormonism has only been anecdotal.

“No person who is trained in child development would ever think it’s a healthy thing to put a child in a room with a male Bishop, without any parent present, where that person is asking them sexually inappropriate questions at the age of 8 or 9 of 10 years old,” says Heimlich. “But that’s been going on for decades.”

“The Mormon Bishops that do these interviews have absolutely no training,” say Bresee. “They call somebody from the congregation. It could be your neighbor, or your plumber or your attorney neighbor—it could be anybody. This is extremely dangerous that you have untrained men prodding into the minds of children with no training.”

And there’s no way out. “With the LDS Church, you’re taught that this is the only true church, and the only path to salvation,” Bresee says. “So imagine that you’re feeling same-sex attraction, but there is no escape. You can’t just go to another church more accepting of the LGBT community. You’re trapped. So it creates extra pressure and maybe a possible suicide, which is occurring.”

“The church has been doing the absolute minimum they have to do publicly as a result of great pressure from within their own communities, simply to save face,” says Heimlich. “But when you have a leadership that has been controlling, oppressing, and emotionally harming people for generations, it takes a very long time to create cultural change.”

Additionally, since LDS teaches that the Prophet, as the infallible head of the church, would never lead the church astray, there can be no backtracking. “They must not be questioned because they do not make mistakes. So it’s ingrained deeply and people are terrified to challenge top leaders,” he says. And the Church is afraid of liability if they admit a mistake.

Bresee left the LDS Church but still wrestles with his son’s suicide (read his blog post here). For instance, though his son shot himself, he has still not wrestled with how that fits into the larger national discussion about gun regulation.

           Samuel Bresee on Aug. 26, 2013, first day of school (photo courtesy Brian Bresee)

He is still haunted by why his son, with whom he talked about everything, including sex, didn’t come to him. “We talked about all kinds of things together, and that hurt so bad that he didn’t come and ask for help. But I understand why. It’s the same reason that maybe a rape victim doesn’t come and ask for help or a victim of child sexual abuse doesn’t ask for help. The word is ‘embarrassment.’ And especially with being called faggot in a Mormon culture,” Bresee says.

His friends concurred. “When you were 14 years old, if everybody at your church, your peers were calling you faggot and that got spread to your school and online—how are you going to tell your parents that you’re being called faggot?” he says. The friends said they’d be too embarrassed.

“One time he did come into my room, and I know he was trying to tell me something,” Bresee says. “I couldn’t see it. I tried to talk to him but it just never quite came out of his mouth.”

Bresee is looking at possible legislation to help children better report what he considers religiously-based child sexual abuse and the Child-Friendly Faith Project is working to provide those who escape such oppressive indoctrination to find the support they need.

On Sept. 7, from 10:00am to 1pm they and hosts The Stop It Foundation are sponsoring a Hike to Protect Every Child and a barbecue at Lone Mountain Regional Park in Las Vegas. See the Facebook events page for more information.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255. The website provides links to CHAT, and for deaf and hard of hearing, and En Espanol. There is a specific LGBTQ page with more resources.

Crisis Text Line:– Text CONNECT to 741741

The Trevor Project: (LGBTQ specific) Trevor Lifeline – 1-866-488-7386 or text START to 678678. Website also has chat option.






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Liam’s Life Foundation’s Chasin’ Change Run-raiser

The run-raiser is a virtual run that can be done anytime/anywhere for the whole month of December to raise awareness against drunk driving



Photo Credit: Liam’s Life Foundation

HERMOSA BEACH – Every 49 minutes in the United States, someone is killed in a drunk driving accident.  In 2016,there were 10,497 people killed in these preventable collisions. Through awareness, education, policy change, and partnerships Liam’s Life Foundation is committed to bringing that number to zero.

Liam’s Life Foundation is inviting you to attend our Chasin’ Change Run-raiser THIS Saturday, December 4th, 2021 at 8:00AM at Hermosa Beach.  

There will be a huge turn-out of participants from the Hawthorne and Redondo Beach police department, fighters and members from Systems Training Center (local mixed martial arts gym) and Wimp2Warrior, and friends and family from Liam’s Life Foundation.

Photo Credit: The Redondo Beach Police Department

Liam’s Life Foundation is a 501(c)3 dedicated to stopping alcohol-impaired driving and the fatalities they cause, founded by the parents of Liam Mikael Kowal after he was killed by a drunk driver on September 3rd, 2016. His parents, Marcus Kowal (professional MMA fighter) and Mishel Eder  have been huge advocates for lowering the legal BAC to 0.05. 

This run-raiser is meant to raise awareness against drunk driving. The run-raiser is a virtual run that can be done anytime and anywhere for the whole month of December. You can run a 5K, 10K, or Half Marathon. 

Please come and support our cause! If you have any questions, comments, or concerns, please don’t hesitate to reach out. 

Liam’s Life Foundation is a 501(c)(3) California Non-Profit Organization founded by professional MMA fighter Marcus Kowal and Mishel Eder in honor of their fifteen month old son Liam Mikael Kowal who was tragically hit and killed by a drunk driver on September 3, 2016 in Hawthorne, California.

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LA area readers; What to do if you are having problems receiving KTLA



LOS ANGELES – Are you having issues receiving KTLA? If so, here’s a step-by-step guide on what to do:

  1. If you receive KTLA via cable or satellite, please contact your service provider. 
  2. If you receive KTLA via antenna, please follow these instructions: 
    1. Switch to a different channel and then go back to KTLA. If the signal does not reappear, please go to step two. 
    2. Please disconnect the power cord from either your television or set-top digital receiver, wait 30 seconds and then reconnect power. If KTLA has not returned, try these additional advanced steps. 
    3. Perform a channel rescan. This step will locate all channels that are receivable in your viewing area. Each television or set-top receiver has specific instructions. The following will help guide you through a typical menu. 
      1. Press the “menu” button on your remote control. If you don’t have a remote control, your TV should have a built-in “menu” button located on the lower front panel or on one of its sides. 
      2. Find and select the “channel scan” option. You may have to look through various menu sections such as settings, tools, options or channel menus to find the channel scan option. 
      3. Once the scanning process begins, it may take up to 10 minutes to complete. If you have an indoor antenna, please remain seated where you normally watch TV so that you don’t block the incoming signal from reaching your indoor antenna. 
      4. When scanning is complete, your TV will either display the number of channels available or it may go back to your last channel watched. 
      5. Select KTLA Channel 5.1 or 5-1. No further action is necessary if you can now see KTLA. 

If you are still experiencing difficulties in receiving KTLA, please email us at [email protected] or by visiting

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LA County Lake Lifeguard Test Starts December 4th!

Lake Lifeguard Test on December 4th at Castaic Aquatic Center at 8am until 12pm. Applicants must fill out the online form  in advance



Photo Credit: County of Los Angeles


LA County Lake Lifeguard Test Starts DECEMBER 4th!

LOS ANGELES -This week, LA County Lake Lifeguards begins its search for potential new lifeguard candidates with the Lake Lifeguard Test on December 4th at Castaic Aquatic Center at 8am until 12pm. Applicants must fill out the online form  in advance (Available here) as well as meet the following requirements: 

  • Swim 1000 meters in 18 minutes
  • Have graduated high school (or equivalent) 
  • Have at least 20/30 in each eye without correction (See job bulletin) 
  • Have a valid California Class C Driver’s License 
  • Be at least 18 by time of LAkeAcademy 
Photo Credit: County of Los Angeles

Upon completion of prerequisites and swim test, candidates must enroll and pass the Lake Lifeguard Academy ($15/hour).

After completing the Academy, Cadets will be eligible to become Lake Lifeguards ($21.35-$27.98/hour). 

If you are unable to attend December 4th, you have another chance on December 12th from 8am to 12pm at Arcadia Park Pool. 

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For more information, visit:

To apply, APPLY HERE.

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